Heres an article that really speaks to me from my innermost perfectionist self. I dont consider myself professional just yet, but the need to train and climb as perfectly as possible stems from being a competitive athlete, from netball, to running, to climbing. And like all perfectionist, I dislike, utterly dislike failing. I'm glad I'm not the only one.
Recently I've been hit with a bout of disappointments and simply have no psych to drive myself. I enter into training with a heavy heart, a tired body and a mind that is not ready to push myself. I talked to several people, really, threw myself a pity party, and got some answers that I needed. It wasnt good to hear, but it was something I needed in order to get better.
The most important question were:
The answer was simple. I wanted to climb better, not just competition-better, but climber-better. Yes, I am training for The North Face Cup Japan 2014, but as of now, the World Cups seems less important than working hard on the outdoors. The amount of psych from the outdoors simply overflows and drives me more than competition. I dont want to just settle for the podiums in the local competitions - I want to hit higher. And this is what drives me right now. To be so so so much better. I dont want to be contented with Open Women podiums, I want to DARE to try the Open Mens. To really challenge myself. Out of all this, I want to really find out what it takes to be an athlete: character, wisdom, strength.
I truly have not been giving enough. Training wise, I'm doing the "usual", not the "challenging". I'm doing the "easy cos im strong" stuff, not the "shit I cant even hang for 5 seconds" stuff. Thats the real fact. The fact is that my training is not hard enough. I've been feeling dejected because I've been training almost everyday, but I dont feel strong, I dont climb strong - because I've been training the wrong things.
Well, as I type this, I think theres more to this than just the article and my current thoughts. Will take a small break and spend my time in Krabi rethinking this whole thing.
Recently I've been hit with a bout of disappointments and simply have no psych to drive myself. I enter into training with a heavy heart, a tired body and a mind that is not ready to push myself. I talked to several people, really, threw myself a pity party, and got some answers that I needed. It wasnt good to hear, but it was something I needed in order to get better.
The most important question were:
- How much do you want to climb well?
- What do you really want from these?
- Do you think you are even giving enough?
The answer was simple. I wanted to climb better, not just competition-better, but climber-better. Yes, I am training for The North Face Cup Japan 2014, but as of now, the World Cups seems less important than working hard on the outdoors. The amount of psych from the outdoors simply overflows and drives me more than competition. I dont want to just settle for the podiums in the local competitions - I want to hit higher. And this is what drives me right now. To be so so so much better. I dont want to be contented with Open Women podiums, I want to DARE to try the Open Mens. To really challenge myself. Out of all this, I want to really find out what it takes to be an athlete: character, wisdom, strength.
I truly have not been giving enough. Training wise, I'm doing the "usual", not the "challenging". I'm doing the "easy cos im strong" stuff, not the "shit I cant even hang for 5 seconds" stuff. Thats the real fact. The fact is that my training is not hard enough. I've been feeling dejected because I've been training almost everyday, but I dont feel strong, I dont climb strong - because I've been training the wrong things.
Well, as I type this, I think theres more to this than just the article and my current thoughts. Will take a small break and spend my time in Krabi rethinking this whole thing.
