Career or dreams

I'm still quite psyched about climbing since I got back form Japan. I've got this radical plan going on to organise a small competition just for the open climbers here. Stay tuned for more info!

But works starting to kick back into my life, and I'm faced with an issue on whether I want to enjoy my worklife, forgo my dreams to represent, or still hang on to climbing, and just see where the road takes me in my career. Its a tough choice. It could mean that I longer have a leverage to ask for sponsorships, I might miss out SEA games 2015. I'm not sure if I can compete locally either. Time and commitment is gonna be placed elsewhere, outside of this climbing bubble. Can i take it?? Theres still this girl whos passionate and wants to climb out there, but how realistic are these dreams?

But I've got something good going on here with the girls. They are getting better, the team dynamics is improving, I'm becoming a better coach too. I want to love my job and enjoy going to school everyday. I want to inspire kids and make them want to play or climb more. If I take on the decision to put climbing first, will the rest of the other parts of my life crumble?

Theres alot of sacrifice going on here. But I'm not sure which to let down. So much potential for both, but I can only choose one. Perhaps I have talked about this many times, but the time is nearing that I have to make a decision. Climbing will be the same without me, but the kids whose life's I'm looking after may not.