its the time of my lifecourse that im worrying about job offers and interviews.
here i am, working on my report, going for lessons,
AND ALSO, making sure my resume is perfect, thinking about jobs and wondering if im gonna get an interview.
argh.
the frustration and worry really gets to me badly.
sigh.

maybe its the fact that ive gotta start earning back the money my parents paid for my education.
pay some bills and relieve the financial burden of my parents who are aready 50+.
jef and trina still schooling.
just sticky $$ issues that i know now everyone goes through.
no grad trip for me. (whats a grad trip?)
just gotta focus on getting that job, securing that position,
and start bringing in the dollar sign.

i guess im really fortunate to have already gotten the offer from moe.
just that i feel myself hesitating real bad.. knowing this is not what i want to do right now.
tsktsk. jud, why so picky?
i pray constantly in my heart to have that bit of hope and faith in God,
to know that everythings gonna be alright.
but somehow this is much more harder than i myself can even believe.
but i must say, i am utterly relieved that i got that one call today.
lifted the weight of my going-to-break heart and erased my worries.
but whether i do well for that interview, is another story ;)
allez jud!

the epicness of the load of these issues on my shoulders is probably comparable to my adolescent emotional instability and nonsense teenage rampage.
argh.
i cant believe im 22 already and still going through all these unprepared.

cant help but put this here!! hahahaha.
my team manager, soon-to-be vice capt so cute!! :)

credits to clara

its that time of the year where teamNUS holds the annual Boulderactive!
this year, kudos to jack & fel, the event was mightily successful!
it was an awesome show, good location, smooth running bouldering comp. (y)

PLUS, we get cool tshirts. oh yea~
this whole weeks been packed to the brim with all the saikang, and hard work to make the event running. :p
everyday bubble tea and fast food. heh.
im like super tired now, first time im home so early from school.
im aching everywhere and doubt i'll be touching my shoes until next week. :p

got many lovely photos from the photographers.
like chris, d and wayne also.
and the crowd, was sensational.
this year, BA really upped the standards yo!

performance during qfy was the worse ive experienced i believe. :p
despite the finishes, i din get bonuses for 2 routes.
unacceptable indeed.
thank God i gt a second chance..
just like in gravical the other time.
me and fel, we got this thing with the second chance thing. always almost scraping through. haha.
im sorry my face was really black and moody after qfy. :p
i try not to show it, feels foolish now. haha.

well for finals, being the first to go for the first time,
i must say the stress was really minimal. yea.
although as we always say, we could have done better in our climbs, im quite ok with my finals routes. haha.
no. 5 is afterall, my goal for this whole training period.
and i guess i kinda hit it square.
but i must work on getting up further. haha. long way to go, but im getting there..

took this photo from facebook!
day 2 of BA @ MS. love the blue shirt! haha.
credits to d!


OW finals, last route 3.
its the Battle of Jud and the Purple Ball.
Jud 1, Ball 1.
and also, flat wall 1, jud 0.
taken from chris.


i like this! haha.
chris managed to capture the chalk flying around.
taken from chris.


this is obi, the japanese route setter.. with big forearms!
quite a spectacle when he demo-ed the OM qfy routes. (y)
taken from chris.


haha. rabbit and i, our usual stretching!
taken from chris.


oh my, major cock up sequence. sigh.
dun know what i was thinking.. ahhh.
taken from chris.


and since north face was having their roadshow right at the walls,
who can resist having a little look:
woohooo!! ;)

here i am, waiting for the new episode of fringe season 3 to load.. haha.
im sleepy.. but i have no idea why im still at the computer.
im thinking of my unfinished essay, and i just wanna flop my head onto my table and mumble some unintelligible nonsense. urgh. :p

henghong just sent a part 1 summary on the Rock Warrior's Way.
looks good. but my essay calls to me.

mock comp just this morning!
its been a long day. :p demoing routes and making sure the routes are up properly..
i love mock comps. haha. especially it being home ground.
and i absolutely love to set hard routes that no one can do. guilty!
anticipating boulderactive up this weekend. whoo~
busy busy week indeed.
but that means excuse to not do work. heh.

chloe, dor and me got selected for national speed.
haha. yay. although im not sure "yay" would be the right word to describe all this. hm.
i remember how close i was in netball.. going for NSL, under21s.
teenage dreams indeed, all the way since sec sch.
im long since grown out of it - now i just sit back and watch my peers train 3 nights a week, ice bath after every game, mental preparation, 2.4k runs, game strategy, etc.
i imagine myself in their shoes, and i know my hips and knees cannot take it.
seems almost torturous (of course i then go on to torture myself more in joining 10km runs. lol)
but have i really grown out of this? hmm.
this national athlete dreams dont seem practical for singaporean middle of the low class people. i think, if that even makes any sense.

oh well, off to worrying and checking emails for job offers. :p
the wait is keeeling me. sigh.
"and we've got bills to pay.."

gotta complete those assignments and 2000 work essays before BA! :p

ALLEZ

this weekend has come and gone quickly!
friday's BA meeting would hopefully get everyone psyched and ready for the comp in 2 weeks.
lots to plan out eso trngs and tiles and people. :p

went for speed trials on saturday.
it was fun! but we still get owned by the youths somehow.
only 3 OWs there.. haha.
feeling quite positive about it.. but gotta see what the SSC and SMF say i guess. hm..
sunday was lead.
and i was a flop! :p haha.
my highwall sense just din kick in when i needed it too..
got owned big time by the little girls. bleh.
well, full steam ahead for boulder!

"Climbing is a never ending cycle, of finding something you’re really motivated on, obsessing over it, and then once you get to the top, celebrating for a little while, and then moving on to the next thing"

- Chris Sharma

i had a strawberry headed friend once. ;)
named rachel keok.
haha. miss her!!



managed to get SRC to support the registration fees for national trials.
heh. ;) well.. its a good thing to ask, and its good to know the school supports us. :)
anyways, who pays to go for trials.. seriously.
so i guess im going for lead (originally decided) and speed with dor!
haha. hm.. hope my legs dont tangle! haha.

epic things rarely happen in my life.
or maybe because it happens rarely so i fail to notice it.
negligible salience?
anyways, monday was nearly faint at fishsoup stall day.
haha.
it was a horrible experience.
with a gleaming bowl of rice in front of me.. i din have the energy and heart to eat it all. :(
lucky got bert to the rescue. haha.
after a nap, ribena and some veggie slicing, i was upon my feet again!

SEA games is not everything..
but i still wanna be top 3 (changed already, heh)

*sigh.. but abit hard ah. :p