on my way

its the time of my lifecourse that im worrying about job offers and interviews.
here i am, working on my report, going for lessons,
AND ALSO, making sure my resume is perfect, thinking about jobs and wondering if im gonna get an interview.
argh.
the frustration and worry really gets to me badly.
sigh.

maybe its the fact that ive gotta start earning back the money my parents paid for my education.
pay some bills and relieve the financial burden of my parents who are aready 50+.
jef and trina still schooling.
just sticky $$ issues that i know now everyone goes through.
no grad trip for me. (whats a grad trip?)
just gotta focus on getting that job, securing that position,
and start bringing in the dollar sign.

i guess im really fortunate to have already gotten the offer from moe.
just that i feel myself hesitating real bad.. knowing this is not what i want to do right now.
tsktsk. jud, why so picky?
i pray constantly in my heart to have that bit of hope and faith in God,
to know that everythings gonna be alright.
but somehow this is much more harder than i myself can even believe.
but i must say, i am utterly relieved that i got that one call today.
lifted the weight of my going-to-break heart and erased my worries.
but whether i do well for that interview, is another story ;)
allez jud!

the epicness of the load of these issues on my shoulders is probably comparable to my adolescent emotional instability and nonsense teenage rampage.
argh.
i cant believe im 22 already and still going through all these unprepared.