on my last day of training, i was bestowed with:

a frowning unibrow!


on the other hand....


is coming!!!!

today, i did a different kind of activity.
involving "rock", but a different kinda rock.
the kind of rock u experience, not touch, while standing on a surf board.
pretty addictive stuff, leaving ur whole body rocking for the whole day.
tmr when i wake up, my back muscles are also gonna be rock.

went for the windsurfing course at Waterventure today with daryl(tan) and kenneth(lim).
im probationally certified(?) now! haha.
not exactly level 1 like climbing, we would have to take a further assessment a few weeks down the road if we wanna be certified. yea.
maybe climbing should do that, then no more bad belays. tsktsk.)
but i can like rent equiment now and surf wind! haha.
AWESOME.

in the beginning it was like windless.
pretty pathetic and when we stopped for lunch, the wind picked up and the pros starting coming out. haha.
so the second time we went out to sea again, it was much better!
took awhile for me to get used to the strong wind again..
it made the sail super heavy! Urgh.
no amount of jensen's training and pt could have prepared me from being pulled down by the wind. :p haha.
but it was a great success.. and i can like sail back and forth now,
catching the wind and tweaking my position now and then.
although turning is abit wobbly.. haha.

all the uphauling is really breaking my back.
and the leaning back to hoist it up and bending my legs made me knees hurt a little. haha.
but no rope burn! (from uphauling) and no bad mast-on-head falls!
but alot of sea-water-up-my-nose falls. :p
so after a few runs up and down, it was time to stop. haha.

went to siglap to meet shu(neng) and have some ytf for dinner!
then its back home to do some work and zzzzz....

its the time of my lifecourse that im worrying about job offers and interviews.
here i am, working on my report, going for lessons,
AND ALSO, making sure my resume is perfect, thinking about jobs and wondering if im gonna get an interview.
argh.
the frustration and worry really gets to me badly.
sigh.

maybe its the fact that ive gotta start earning back the money my parents paid for my education.
pay some bills and relieve the financial burden of my parents who are aready 50+.
jef and trina still schooling.
just sticky $$ issues that i know now everyone goes through.
no grad trip for me. (whats a grad trip?)
just gotta focus on getting that job, securing that position,
and start bringing in the dollar sign.

i guess im really fortunate to have already gotten the offer from moe.
just that i feel myself hesitating real bad.. knowing this is not what i want to do right now.
tsktsk. jud, why so picky?
i pray constantly in my heart to have that bit of hope and faith in God,
to know that everythings gonna be alright.
but somehow this is much more harder than i myself can even believe.
but i must say, i am utterly relieved that i got that one call today.
lifted the weight of my going-to-break heart and erased my worries.
but whether i do well for that interview, is another story ;)
allez jud!

the epicness of the load of these issues on my shoulders is probably comparable to my adolescent emotional instability and nonsense teenage rampage.
argh.
i cant believe im 22 already and still going through all these unprepared.

cant help but put this here!! hahahaha.
my team manager, soon-to-be vice capt so cute!! :)

credits to clara